i can no longer force myself to accept all these

i have reached my limit...and i really can't hold it anymore

i have had enough problems already

too many things

haunting

and now, my parents really can make things worse

in them, all i can see are anger, regret, sadness, complaint, disappointment and hatred

there is nothing called love. it simply does not exist, at least not in them

i know all my anime and fantasies can't satisfy me, but i rather try getting some tiny bit of happiness and love from there rather than looking around me. Things around me are so real, yet so ugly. Why bother looking

it was so hopeless to the point it is so ridiculously funny. But as it gets funnier, it ain't funny no more

i don't want to cry or get angry or anything, i simply give up.

i don't know how to laugh, or laugh at this anymore. Too pathetic

i want to quit this meaningless game.

"So with sadness in my heart
feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever

what's done is done it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending"